There’s a saying that goes something like this: if you think you can or you think you can’t, either way you are right.
That was my mantra for the duration of my time in Bali with David Wolfe and the rest of the crew. I learnt so much about myself in those two weeks (like the fact that a 100% raw vegan diet doesn’t work for my constitution). One of the biggest lessons was that I have control over my fears, not the other way around (oh, that and it’s not a good idea to attempt shoulder stand for the first time when the humidity has made your hands uber slippery – but that’s a story for another time).
One of the biggest lessons was that I have control over my fears, not the other way around.
There were a number of things I thought I couldn’t do prior to the trip, with the main ones being:
- I couldn’t book (and therefore actually have to go on) a solo overseas trip
- I couldn’t do an hour of yoga per day because I wasn’t strong enough
- I couldn’t overcome my fear of falling and participate in the zip lining
In the end, Elsa decided to come on the trip at the last minute but that was kind of irrelevant because the hardest part for me was putting the deposit down and knowing that it meant I would be heading overseas on my own (something I had never done before).
Now that I have overcome the fear, I fully intend on taking a trip by myself. I just have to work out where to go!
My second fear was that I’d make a fool of myself during the yoga sessions. To say that I am no yogi would be the understatement of, well, let’s just say a really long time. It was only in February of this year that I pushed, coaxed and cajoled myself into my first downward dog. In the lead up to the trip, I told myself that I wouldn’t be able to get through daily yoga classes, and I decided I would just do yoga every few days while in Bali.
I walked into the beautiful open-air yoga studio (which overlooked the Tjampuhan Valley) on the first morning and, in that moment, decided I was going to attend every yoga session. I’m not sure how much of that decision had to do with the spectacular views but I’m glad I made it. Over the course of the trip, I mastered so many poses that I had previously thought were out of my reach.
Over the course of the trip, I mastered so many poses that I had previously thought were out of my reach.
The final limiting belief I conquered was that I wouldn’t be able to participate in the zip lining at the Bedugal Botanical Gardens. While I don’t have a fear of heights as such, I have a definite fear of falling that was brought on when I fell off a cliff a few years ago. Needless to say, I was pretty nervous about going zip lining.
I don’t know what I was worried about! After completing one of the easier courses, I quickly decided that I wanted something more challenging and moved on to a longer, higher, and more physically demanding course. There was one moment when I realised the course had taken me away from the main area of the park and I was by myself. A jolt of panic went through me as I realised I didn’t have any option but to get through the rest of the course. I took a couple of deep breaths, pushed the thought away and completed the course without giving my fear a second thought.
I’m so proud that I busted through all of those limiting beliefs – because that’s all they were. Beliefs. They weren’t reality. Not even close. The unsupportive, fearful part of my brain wanted me to fail because then it could say, “See, I told you that you weren’t good enough, that you couldn’t possibly succeed, that you never should have tried!” and keep me firmly in my comfort zone. In the past I have let this part of my brain dominate my decision making, paralysing me with fear but I made a conscious effort to push myself on the trip. I’m so glad that I did.
Thank you to all of my fellow Wolfe pack members for making the trip one that I will remember for the rest of my life.